IT'S 7TH GRADE...


I stared at the girl next to me...She was my so called "best friend"... I stared at her... Long, silky hair... And I wished she was mine... But she didn't notice me like that... I knew it... After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before... And I handed them to her... She said "thanks"... And gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her... I want her to know that I don't want to be "just friends"... I love her but I'm too shy to tell her... And I don't know why...





IT'S JUNIOR YEAR...


My phone rang... On the other end it was her... She was in tears... Mumbling on and on about how her love had broken her heart... She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone... So I did... As I sat next to her on the sofa... I stared at her soft eyes... Wishing she was mine... After 2 hours... A Drew Barrymore movie... And 3 bags of chips... She decided to go to sleep... She looked at me.. Said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her... I want her to know... That I don't want to be "just friends"... I love her but I'm too shy to tell her... And I don't know why...





IT'S SENIOR YEAR...


The day before prom... She walked to my locker... "My date is sick" she said... He's not going to go... Well... I didn't have a date and in 7th grade... We made a promise that if neiter of us had dates... We'd go together just as "best friends"... And so we did...





IT'S PROM NIGHT...


After everything was over with... I was standing at her front door step... I stared at her ... She smiled at me... I wanted her to be mine... But she doesn't think of me like that... And I know it... Then she said "I had the best time... Thanks!"... And she gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to telll her... I wanted her to know that I don't want to be "just friends"... I love her but I'm just too shy... And I don't know why...





IT'S GRADUATION DAY...


A day passed... And then a week... And then a month... Before I could blink... It was graduation day... I watched her... Perfect body... Floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma... I wanted her to be mine... But she doesn't think of me that way... And I know it... Before everyone went home... She came to me in her smock and hat... And cried as I hugged her... Then she lifted her head from my shoulders and said "you're my best friend"... "Thanks!"... And gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her.. I wanted to know that I wanted to be more than "just friends"... I love her but I'm too shy... And I don't know why...





IT'S A FEW YEARS LATER...


Now I sit in the pews of the church... A church that she is getting married in now... I watched her say "I do" an drive off to her new life... Married to another man... I wanted her to be mine... But she didn't see me like that... And I knew it... But before she drove away... She came to me and said "You came!... Thanks!"... And she kissed me on the cheek... I wanted to tell her... I wantd her to know that I didn't want to be "just friends"... I love her but I'm just too shy... And I don't know why...





YEARS PASSED...


I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend"... At the service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years... This is what it said... "I stare at him... Wishing he was mine... But he doesn't notice me like that... And I know it... I wanted to tell him... I wanted him to know... That I don't want to be "just friends"... I love him but I'm just too shy... And I don't know why... I wish he would tell me he loved me"... I wish I did too... I thought to myself and I cried...

Currently Listening Lifesong By Casting Crowns track 3 see related

Does Anybody Hear Her?

Casting Crowns

I'm Not Alright  By Sanctus Real

Weakness is a wound that no one wants to speak of 

Then cruel is just how far we have to fall 

I am not immune 

I only want to be loved 

But I feel safe behind the fire wall 

Can I lose my need to impress 

If You want the truth, I need to confess 

I'm not alright 

I'm broken inside, broken inside 

And all I go through, 

It leads me to You, it leads me to You 

Burn away the pride, bring me to my weakness 

'Till everything I hide behind is gone 

When I'm open wide 

With nothing left to cling to 

Only You are there to lead me on 

Cause honestly, 

I'm not that strong 

I'm not alright 

I'm broken inside, broken inside 

And all I go through, 

It leads me to You, it leads me to You 

(And I move, and I move, and I move) 

Closer to You 

(And I move, and I move, and I move) 

Closer to You 

(And I move, and I move, and I move) 

Closer to You 

I'm not alright 

I'm broken inside, broken inside 

I'm broken inside, broken inside 

And all I go through, 

It leads me to You, it leads me to You 

I'm not alright 

I'm not alright 

I'm not alright 

That's why I need You

What Hurts the Most by Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house 
That don’t bother me 
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out 
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while 
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me 
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok 
But that’s not what gets me 

What hurts the most 
Was being so close 
And having so much to say 
And watching you walk away 
And never knowing 
What could have been 
And not seeing that loving you 
Is what I was tryin’ to do 

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go 
But I’m doin’ It 
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone 
Still Harder 
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret 
But I know if I could do it over 
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart 
That I left unspoken 

What hurts the most 
Is being so close 
And having so much to say 
And watching you walk away 
And never knowing 
What could have been 
And not seeing that loving you 
Is what I was trying to do 

What hurts the most 
Is being so close 
And having so much to say 
And watching you walk away 
And never knowing 
What could have been 
And not seeing that loving you 
Is what I was trying to do 

Not seeing that loving you 
That’s what I was trying to do